I have a friend who shits herself.
Not only has she shit herself, she finds no shame in sharing it with her friends and the people she finds important in her life. She doesn't do this to get a gag or because she has a freaky fecal matter fetish (the ole FFMF). She's had a handful of times where she just couldn't "hold it."
She is free.
If you spent 5 minutes talking with her you would get a solid sense of her confidence. She knows who she is and it's beautiful. She doesn't care what you think.
She knows obsessing over what you think of her is only going to spiral her into an endless zero-sum attempt of appeasing people. No one can ever win that game. If you don't like what she has to offer, it doesn't matter. She has people that she cares for and people that care for her.
This isn't to say she is cold hearted and shut off from the world. She's the complete opposite. One of the most compassionate people you could ever meet.
In this world where we are connected to people and know what everyone is doing at a moment's notice, we need to disconnect and stop catering an image to everyone.
Stop caring so much. It is going to drive you mad.
I know I find myself in this trap all the time.
Is my writing going to be good today?
Do people think I'm stupid or way in over my head for doing this?
Will some of my writing halt my opportunities for future employment?
At the end of the day, it might not matter.
I know I need to do this. To create work. To write. To build a community of creatives that are encouraging people to do the same.
"Nobody exists on purpose, nobody belongs anywhere, everybody's gonna die. Come watch TV?" Morty Smith
The quote above might seem dark. But it's the truth. The last sentence illustrates letting go.
Now none of this means going out and committing vile acts. Everything worth doing should come from a place of love and compassion. To build one another up. You have a burning desire to sign this song because the message is dear to you, great. You have a innovative new product that will help peoples' lives, fantastic.
That's what it's all about.
What calling have you been holding back from? Have you held back from making that comic book because you're worried what people will think?
We're all human. We all have feelings. People say stuff sometimes that gets under our skin.
Try blocking all of that out like your life depends on it.
Chances are, it does.
"Practice any art, music, dancing, acting, drawing, painting, sculpting, poetry, fiction, essays, reportage, no matter how well or badly, not to get money or fame, but to experience becoming, to find what's inside you, to make your soul grow." -Kurt Vonnegut
How many times have you talked to an elder only to hear about the regrets they have in life? They say they wished they did this and that. They wished they told someone how they really felt. They wished they didn't spend their whole life at a job they didn't love. They wished they learned to play the saxophone. Whatever it may be.
Don't let that be you.
People will think your song sucks. People will think your product won't sell. People will think you're stupid for leaving that secure job.
Take a shit and move on.